Welcome back @jaspercane! Sorry to hear about your friend and partner. Losses like that will sure take the wind out your sails and leave a hole in your heart.Well its been about 9 years since I was light use member here. So Im going to re-introduce myself and say High Again!
About the last thing I did here was a large DD Grow. I was Outlaw at that time but times have changed and now this state has been legal for the last couple years! I really thought I would never see it in my lifetime. My partner in that grow back then was suffering from cancer unfortunately he never got to see it. He passed soon after we did that grow. I havent grown a single plant since. When he passed it just took the joy out of it. This is the first season I thought I'd get back to it. Im doing both regulars and autos and just popped my first few this week. Im disabled and money is limited especially in these pandemic times so Im not giving any more money to the dispensaries. LED was just catching on back then and there wasnt near the selection of autos back then as they are now. I thought I'd come back to what I thought was the best Autoflower forum on the web and learn what I've missed these years. Looking forward to catching up on the latest and greatest from the best! Maybe I will see if this big bag of DD seeds I have are still any good.
Wish you best in your new grows!