Hey guys, I realize I haven't been around for a while so I wanted to pop in and let you know what's up.
I am officially 3 weeks sober. Alcohol. And weed.
I realized I was headed down a bad path, both my grandmother and my father ended up on dialysis from renal failure. My fathers was for sure due to alcoholism and then later uncontrolled diabetes. My grandmothers was from diabetes.
I did the math and I was drinking the equivalent of a fifth of bourbon every night on weekdays.
And without the alcohol, the weed made me extremely anxious.
So, 3 Sundays ago I quit everything cold turkey. I'm extremely thankful and lucky that I didn't end up with the DTs. The first week was hard, but after that, it got a lot easier. And now...I don't want to drink. I'm down over 20 pounds already. I feel fantastic. I have tons of energy and I'm getting a lot more done around the house. I'm a better husband and a better father. I am sleeping a solid 9 hours a day and its good sleep. I wake up and I don't have a headache, don't feel like I want to puke, my body doesn't ache.
I realized I was smoking mostly to deal with the aches and pains that was coming from the insane amount of drinking that I was doing, and without the drinking, I didn't need it. My back, legs and feet no longer constantly ache. And I'm noticing that my attention span and memory are already improving.
I want to be clear, this is in no way an indictment of any of you - my wife still partakes and I have zero issues with that. I just asked her to please not do it around me for the time being until I have better control of my sobriety.
Growing weed was something that I found to be extremely relaxing, fun and rewarding. I hope to be back at it some day. I am not getting rid of any of my equipment. I hope that within a few years our federal government legalizes it - I think that would go a long way in lessening the anxiety that I feel when I smoke. Until then I'm just going to have to make due with my tomatoes and peppers.
Any seeds that were shared with me by some of the amazing members both here and on other forums are being kept, they are going into long term storage with desiccant. I am also sharing some of them with a friend who has decided to start growing, I just put together a care package to mail to them.
Thank you, all of you.
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