I mean I know that you offered I just felt like I'd be I don't even know how to say this how do I use the right vernacular I'm not used to people being kind and generous like you are and when they have been in the past I've regretted asking for their help for example when I had shared in another thread here some douchebag that was in a dog group I was in where my dog for whatever reason had this horrible health issue in the middle of the park when I was there with them and he offered to pay for the initial net visit which was like 275 and then after he pays that a week later he's like trying to berate me and make me feel like I need to carry his groceries for him everyday he sees me because he did that so I had a you know I apologize