Suki, you sounds like a smart person with a lot of feelings. I believe you are a great mom to your children, and thank you for writing from your heart and sharing. Some people, me by others can reflect and see things that reminds me of my life.
I will try get retired and a monthly paycheck from the state and get myself a new laptop, then spend all my time here and grow weed.
That’s basically all i need to be happy.
PC/Phone, internet, some weed to grow and smoke. That’s it
Something is strange with my PTSD as some days i don’t worry at all, whilst other days it could be heavy to even say hello to a neighbor.
Would be nice to understand that part, been thinking about it all my life.