Makes total sense, sometimes I don't even know what I'm feeling until I scroll through my music and something clicks. Kind of a weird way to live, but I have listened to music since I can remember; I have been "plugged in" most of the time. that my taste in music is dark says something too
Indulge me in this song, I have seen this band three times, but not this song. I heard it multiple times, it was an instrumental on an album. Then one day this version with vocals was on a industrial/goth music podcast and it was like being hit by a train. The emotion and power in his voice, the lyrics. May not be your style but it's worth a serious listen.