Wreckage of the passed

[buddyholic]

High everyone, And i really hope you are
Ok so here goes,......
I have Memory problems and a compromised ability to think straight and often find myself stuck to the spot not knowing what i am supposed to be doing.
I also have a severely compromised ability to learn new things because of my memory problems.
I know this can happen to anyone and everyone on occasion and can be down to simple absent mindedness or trying to concentrate on too many things at once but my case is not like that.
This is a whole new ball game.
To be honest i have a horrendous history of Drug and Alcohol abuse spanning back over 30 years and the last 16 years of that time i was addicted to Heroin and Alcohol.
before that it was the whole array of drugs like LSD, Extacy, Amphetamines ect.
I can suffer from extreme anxiety and panic attacks that are so strong i can experience collapses and out of body experiences.
Anyway i have had some amazing results from smoking Cheese but not always as the varieties of cheese that has helped me remember and recite poetry that i wrote over 20 years ago have been bought from the street.
I have one with me now and i was told it was blue cheese but its most definitely not.
It isnt even cured right and i am crystal clear in my thinking and have not stopped to try and think about things once today.
You have no idea what it means to me to find this strain of cheese that so brightens up my life.
Please Help.

 

[buddyholic]

Oh and by the way,.....
I am six years clean of all drugs apart from Cannabis.

 

[freedom4all]

Can't help you with the strain but congrats on 6 years sober friend I'm going on 2 years sober from alcohol this may

 

[buddyholic]

Same to you friend. Congrats and welcome to AFN

 

[Eyes on Fire]

I too was pretty bad but not hardcore but i too also have memory issues more than Id like thats for sure.MS and a few other similar issues lend to crappy memory but the strains i tend to like for that are a sati dom ambered up about half way.not a speed weed but a nice middle of the road sativa with a decent amber.really helps me just sit back ,relax and let your thoughts just roll out man,niiice and mellow euphoric for me.the BBM is great too increases blood flow and a blend of blackstone and that sati i mentioned works well for me too. Congrats on being clean brother :Sharing One:

 

[Eekman]

Congrat's buddynonholic on 6 years of hardcore clarity.

nothing but cannabis since 9/26/1996 (my last drink).

Okay here is a thought worthy of exploration. maybe it is not the strain, but the "Cure" you say is not well done? Have you checked out the trichomes with a glass? Could be exactly what you need. see if you can replicate the same results. See if it works the same.

If not, the back to the drawing board.

Just an idea my friend, and good luck.