Depression and Suicide

Hey @stepside hows it going bro? hope all is well. If you found weed on your boy I would sit him down and show him the good and bad points of weed. not necessarily tell him what you do, but explain to him all about it. Let him know your up for chatting about these things and you wont get mad if he is honest with you about it, Maybe this could be a way of bonding and showing him he can trust you no matter what?

About the gun thing, its a gun thing to us, but a much more serious concern for you and your family bro. The last ten years I have lost about 15 friends I grew up with to suicide, its a nasty thing, leaving all the crap behind for your family and no answers as to why.

My friend killed himself by throwing the rope up, he sent his mum a text before he did it saying its my time to go and that he loved her. She never got that text when he sent it, was it a cry for help, for his mum to go save him? we will never know.

as when these things happen, police come in take all their tech away with them to make sure there was no threatening emails texts etc. so when they took his mobile phone, they switched it off till they were going to look at it.

2 weeks later, 1 week after he was buried, the police turned on his phone at the police station, and yes, the message he sent but his mother didn't get at the time was still pending. so when they switched it on it sent. His poor mum, 2 weeks after he died got a text from him stating all the above and it sent her over the edge.

Exactly one month after his death, his girlfriend was found hanging in her bedroom, with a note saying she could not live without him and she was sorry and had to go be with him in heaven. This was devastating to everyone involved.

2 funerals in one month.

6 months after he died his mum and dad and younger sister went on holiday to get over the madness which had occurred several months before, no more than being 24 hours of them being on holiday, my mother gets wrapped out of bed to the news that his older brother had hung himself while his parents were on holiday. My dad went to the house to perform CPR while the ambulance service arrived.

My dad told me it was the most horrific thing he had ever seen in his life. His eye had popped out of its socket due to the pressure of the rope. My dad will never get that image out of his head ever.

I guess I'm putting all this down here tonight to let you guys know that suicide is the worst possible thing you can leave your family with. I'm just getting over this mess now as they were all my friends. I'm not asking for you guys to feel sorry for me either all I want is you guys to think before you act. Come on here, chat in this forum there is always someone around to pm or chat to on here.

Rant over.

Peace and love always.

Seasickdee2
 
I didn't know there was this thread on he, I have Bipolar nos as well as well as BPD, My whole life has been a bit of a mix up going from job to job because I get bored finding it hard to keep friends because of my mood swings. Ive not been on medication since I was around 15 due to the way it made me feel had a few attempts in my early years due to not understanding what I was going through which Im glad I didnt mange to do it. The people I work with now know about my bipolar and explained about my mood swings and what to look for and to leave me alone. with my mood swings I can feel them coming and try to get myself out where I can lose my temper ( which has happened before ) and its not pretty. Its not pretty due to when I was at school the doctor told my mum it was due to me having to much energy and that doing things to burn it off would help, so I did a number of things like kick boxing and nin jitsu which didnt help :crying: all it meant when I lost my temper I kicked the crap out of someone. But now I can keep a handle on things and have a couple of close friends who understand what im like and can put up with it lol

I can go from one thing to the next at the drop of a hat and when I get something in my head I wont sleep cant sleep till Ive sorted it

Working out the size of my grow cupboard to the exact mm so the fan and filter works best and the the whole running of it didnt help but now the growing puts my mind at ease and helps with the bipolar and bpd ( think I can use that in court lol )

Sorry Ive gone on
 
Having a horrible time and I'm not the type to talk ,really don't have anyone but afn to talk to ,haven't slept much and I am trying to figure out what to do
 
I am listening bro. Sometimes when cuacamole hits the fan and emotions are running wild it does good to just hold on and meditate on it a minute, focus and then go about it.

Relax and try to calm your mind so it will be in most clear state to express whats going on.
 
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I have been sober for 3 and a half years recently my x girlfriend started drinking and staying out all nite I watched our son with lil complaints and held everything together even though it was falling apart something happens to this girl when she drinks she becomes totally different,almost evil and she does disgusting things with guys I was with her while sober but I remember when we used to drink and how she gets down ,just the beginning to my sad story she actually says I'm dumb and retarded and makes fun of some of my autistic traits ,constantly calling me names and doing me completely bad
 
I go to see my oldest son and she talks shit about that ,she's actually jealous of my oldest boy I am a really laid back happy go lucky guy haven't been in a while fucking sucks
 
She says any family I had. Before I need to give up for her I don't have a family just children and she wants me to abandon them
 
Listen bro,

You don't need this girl in your life if that's how she makes you feel. Your priorities now are you, and your little Baba! Stay strong, sober and people can name call all they like but only you know who you are and how you feel. We all will listen to yours and anyone else's needs 24/7 that's why this,thread was opened.

Sometimes what I do is write all my feelings down on paper when,I get angry,upset etc and put it somewhere for a day. Then I go back to it the day after and re read it, if I still feel that way I put it away for another day or two and repeat this until those feelings have left me, once they have left me I burn that piece of paper as a symbol or acknowledgement that I am over it and a stronger person for it.

Give it a try bro and update us on your progress.

Peace.
 
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