Depression and Suicide

[freedom4all]

Thanks mossy I'm glad someone is here I just don't know what to do :/ this is so frustrating it's like everything gets good and then everything goes to hell and lower it's like jumping from everest to the center of the earth I need a way out

 

[freedom4all]

I've never been so close I feel like I'm totally at the end of my rope I'm just trying to pick my poison so to speak I don't want to leave a huge mess for my parents :/ but I need this to be over I just wanna go home to adak I just feel so out of place it's like no one understands me

 

[Mossy]

You just need a way to balance things out.
Unfortunately when we get depression we get overwhelmed with Stuff.
Everyone in this thread Understands that.
You are not Alone.
Honestly.

 

[Mossy]

Apart from the depression how is your Health....are you having sleep problems..?

 

[Mossy]

Are you currently taking antidepressants..?

 

[freedom4all]

I know it's like when it rains it pours and it's just a total freaking swing I gotta get up in 4 hours for work and I've been up for 36 I feel like calling out but it's the only day I'm working for 3 weeks and I wasn't even scheduled I plan on going in but I'm honestly afraid I'm not going to be able to hold it together and if I ask to leave early due to my ptsd and stuff they are just gonna fire me and I can't have that so it's like I risk going nuts at work or losing my job and if any of you have ptsd anything combat or violence related yall know that shit just pops up and you are gone at least for me like I can be around 4 people the 5th one walks up and I freak idk what to do

 

[freedom4all]

No I medicated with alcohol for years but got clean off that and I grew cannabis last winter but am all out and that's making it worse cause it helped so much

 

[Mossy]

No I medicated with alcohol for years but got clean off that and I grew cannabis last winter but am all out and that's making it worse cause it helped so much

That's the Problem. Your meds have bottomed out.
I've got a couple of Ideas for you that might Help.
I'll go to mails.

 

[freedom4all]

I just wish I had been able to grow a bit more than I did but I gave a zip to a friend of mine when he was in need but the last 3 and a half went faster than I thought

 

[dankstyle J]

No I medicated with alcohol for years but got clean off that and I grew cannabis last winter but am all out and that's making it worse cause it helped so much

Me two been clean for 3years every day a li'l easier but maybe not