Thanks for asking guys, read on what some of you guys posted. And guys whether big or small what I learned is that by just talking about it or letting it out in the open, it can tremendously help, so don't back out just because you might not think it's a big problem. Instead talk about it, keeping it bottle in doesn't help, I've been walking around and thanks to Mr Toby on here I talked to a person on craigslist and let him know that I would be able to pay for half a months of rent and would pay when I get my job, he hesitated but said as soon as he runs a background check on me he will let me know. I have no record so it should be good, I opened up the engine and one of the heads is completely mulled up, pieces of metal everywhere the engine completely seized so there is nothing left of it. I will have to replace it, I can do the labor so I lucked out on that, now its just about finding the engine, found one on craigslist and am trying to talk to the guy to barter it, I would do any kind of home work or car work, he is very hesitant but says if no one buys it in 2 weeks he will do it. I just hate waiting specially if I wait and then someone buys it. It's looking a bit brighter now but it's still a daily struggle. Which is why I'm so thankful of you guys. Listening to me and lending a hand. Thank to Mr Toby I can pay half a month of rent. And I'm glad my seeds that I sent popped freedom. Nice to know there's still some of my seeds out there living and carrying on