Depression and Suicide

[Dark Matter]

High guys,

Hope all is well. I raise this issue because in the last 10 years I have lost most of my friends through depression and then eventually suicide.

As someone who suffers from depression, I've noticed that there,is,a stigma attached to men I'm general who are depressed..feeling depressed or just need someone to talk to.

My life,experiences have brought me to,where I am today, I have tried suicide in the past and wish I had not have, because when I look back in that time of my life, I had a beautiful daughter who at the,time I didn't know bit she idolized me.

And to think back at the,pain I could,have caused,her and the rest of my family I think that adds to the depression in a way.

I see on her a,place for all the vets to hang out and talk about their issues, life experiences or just somewhere to blow of some steam, but never .. On any other forum seen a thread for,this kind of issue....because men are men and we don't need to talk about things.... Well I'm here to say that we do.

So basically all I would like is for this thread to remain open..i can look after it if need,be...for people like me who are depressed... Mentally wounded....anything on your mind...to get it out in the open. I find a problem shared is a problem halved.

Dont wanna lower the tone, but when this affects your neighbour hood as it has affected mine, then maybe I think it,needs,more attention...

Peace and love ❤

 

[Papa Munch]

Big ass bro-hug SSD!

To be honest, I don't know what to say other than I agree and you know what? I don't think you could have found a better place to express this. I feel that most everyone here is a genuine good soul that I could call friend even though we've never met. You have an excellent support group here.

You know, I have to throw in that old cliche.....it will get better! I know it will. I have struggles that I go through daily but it is sometimes something as simple as this forum that can pick me up. We're here for you Dude! If you ever want to chat.....PM me anytime. You are not alone.

 

[Dark Matter]

I appreciate that papa munch, i been through the,ringer and back. What i wanna do is able others,to share, their issues because like you said this is the best place to do it. I've seen a lot but i know I'm good with it. I wanna enable others to get help. You never know. Maybe we could save one life... Then,its a,success. This thread is not about me and my issues, bit more about everyone else issues. I have,a lot of experience in helping people in need from all communities and backgrounds due to my working life! My pm is always open to anyone who needs a chat or a blow out. I literally have,no people in my real life who i can call friends anymore all my friends have,been buried. You guys are my life support believe it or not.

So i want to help as many people as i can. Even if its,a pm... I found...in my darker days when i used,chat rooms that i could spill out all my problems to someone i didn't know.. And it made me feel better. So as before.. My pm is always open.

 

[armanidog]

Depression is a bitch. I've had it, mainly due to the situation. I took antidepressants for a while. They do make your mouth dry among other things. I was able to get off them by going to a group that met once a week. I was able to talk and was able to realize some things I needed to change due to the feed back from the group.
If you need to chat PM me.

 

[Dark Matter]

That's what om getting at armanidog, we don't need those meds if you check,them, do the research...a side effect is " suicide " how fucked,up is that.

Like you said,the best medicine for this is,speech. Talk to one another. Hence this thread.

 

[NRKgrw]

Aw seasick,
big big hugs from afar
Lost my best friend from high school in 2010 to depression. I was shocked when at the funeral her minister brought it all out into the open. In a good way, if that's possible. Not critical, just a plea for help and understanding. It was raw, staring right at the whole crowd. I found it cathartic to actually be honest about it all instead of the usual avoidance. So many people suffer in silence.
I'm a good listener seasick.....

 

[Dark Matter]

Guys,

I thank you for the ears,to bend but I'm honestly good with it all. I opened this thread to all others who may not wanna chat in person to someone about these,issues,and bring them up here so we all can help them. I'm not asking for help in a round about way... Yet... I want this,thread for all others to share,and converse,with others about their issues.

Please guys, dont make this about,me!

Peace and love

 

[yodabuds]

I unfortunatelt suffer severe depression, very chronic and sometimes I feel there is no hope I don't know sometimes if it's im just fucked up, an effect of the ms (which is been known to muck with those areas of the brain) or what the deal is.... My suffering isn't based on what I am going through as far as my disabilities and my demise that I suffer from, it's the crippling fear of loosing theses around me and having zero control over things (such as cOngestive heart failure, Alzheimer's, cancer etc) am to stoned to get into details but the long and short of it is I cared for my father in my home full time for almost an entire year with him at end stage delirium/alhiemers he was total care etc.... Thankfully professionaly I have the background and know how to have cared for him, but loosing him three years ago and SEVERAL beloved pets in the past three years as well and also having two more elderly dogs with health issues and a partner with COPD and lung ca and my poor mom with her cardiac issues and other problems.... It's all sitituational I tell myself and I can't control the outcomes but it still doesn't stop me from having a constant underlying anxiety/nervous problem and over all just haven't been myself in so long.... WHEW I NEED A VACA! Lol anyhow thanks Seasickie for giving is a thread to just vent on all the crazy spinning in a lot of our heads I am sure.... Which is sorta fitting considering most of us are self medicating and getting the best relief from the God send Canna! Ahhhh Allrighty one last round at the bong and its bed time! Hope everyone has a peaceful and restful nights sleep!
Namaste

 

[Dark Matter]

Sometimes a forum like this is just what we need to vent and talk to people without worrying if they will understand.
I think this also is the first time we have actually conversed Yoda.

So nice to finally type at you! Lol

Peace

 

[stepside]

Seesick,
I been there man. Still fighting. Situational depression sucks. Having no control over the outcome of someone else's actions can and has been the downfall of a lot of people. Hopelessness breeds misery. I think having a place to vent is a great idea and you should be commended for putting it into action. AFN is like a new home/escape for me and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I dont know a lot of the people on here but so far the ones I've spoken to or typed to are all good people, people without judgment. Just saying that I hope this thread stays open just as you do because it could definitely help someone. Thanks again.
Good idea man