Just got to say I can feel where your coming from. When I grew my own I was tripping quiet often and like you said testing different doses , found a happy place I could function in society on them ... The last time and will probably be only time unless under guidance of a Shaman. The last time was so life altering to my core it changed me for GOOD! And it was for the good! I realized how everything is connected and for every action there is a reaction, a ying/yang to the "universal energy we all belong to", also the illusion of time was stripped away and I let myself into that energy:... Only last like 30sec but was so. Freaking hardcore ! Kind of mAde me more comfortable with my mortality ( remember I got into the shrooms when I was first dx'es with ms and used then in a way as therapy to work through the issues of living and finding a purpose being chronically ill...
I also found it a comfort when I did trip on my own gear that I knew it was 100% safe no containments so never got on that trip, where I had in the past taking wild picked ones ... One of us usually would go off into a tangent that we had bad shrooms... Half of would laugh at him sometimes and sometimes that same half could be sucked in to getting that thought stuck.... Lol I got a syringe of eq from awhile back but has always been I fridge and is clear ... Wonder if it's good still ? Also have one other wait a sec....
Is Taz.... Both very good stuff so tempted maybe next spring to do a run again ... So simple to do.