Outdoor The^Dudes High Tunnel Grow 2020

Thanks guys, I’m actually surrounded by loved ones, if anything I think I needed some alone time to process what the hell happened lol.
Must have been a perfect storm of chemical disruption and exhaustion. and maybe coming back to a darker climate after spending a few days under the tropical sun. No idea. Either way, in a better place today so I’m going to chalk it up to a freak disturbance and move on with my life.
This community is amazing though, it’s always great to be in a group of such supportive folks. Thank you everyone, as always, year after year this is a great place to be.
Now back to growing some plants!
 
2023 indoor 10-plant run week 4
This is week 4 of flower, just after final defoliation. Girls are looking happy!
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I’ve never experienced anything like this. I’ve battled depression for 25 years, and things have been easier the last 8 or so. Went to a convention last week, had an amazing experience with someone on Thursday night (a walk and a conversation, but it was amazing), got back home Friday, and suddenly I’m half a man. I can’t sleep. Not interested in food. Filled with despair and nothing. And darker. What the hell. It’s like I’m not here. It’s not going away. So empty I hope for a strong wind to blow me away into nothing. That’s so far from my normal state it’s absurd. But here I am.
Not looking for an answer, but not sure what to do either. Just wanted to say hey I guess.
I get depression and anxiety a lot and when things get bad I just remember when I was sitting in prison and poof magically things aren't that bad any more.
Just remember your a cool dude and you have people who care about you. Talking usually helps me a lot also and you have plenty of friends here if you ever need to chat to uplift your spirits I'm here for ya bud.
Everyone is just coming out of winter. Hold on a few more weeks and see if being able to get outside doesn't help. You've got that great tunnel that needs attention. Sounds like absolute boomer advice but yeah, get some sun on your face and see if you don't start feeling different with a change in the weather.

Some holes are very deep. Will take a while to climb out.
This winter seemed especially depressing and I believe you are correct getting outside and getting your hands back in the soil and under the sun changes the world quite a bit.
 
I get depression and anxiety a lot and when things get bad I just remember when I was sitting in prison and poof magically things aren't that bad any more.
Just remember your a cool dude and you have people who care about you. Talking usually helps me a lot also and you have plenty of friends here if you ever need to chat to uplift your spirits I'm here for ya bud.

This winter seemed especially depressing and I believe you are correct getting outside and getting your hands back in the soil and under the sun changes the world quite a bit.
Thanks man, I appreciate that. I’ve dealt with anxiety and depression for a long time, but it’s been over a decade since I’ve been that low, and it came out of nowhere. Like getting hit by a truck, that was nuts. Not all the way back yet, but far improved over Sunday.

I just had 7 yards of some awesome compost delivered, didn’t have any of my own ready this year, but I’ve got a great excuse to get out there in the sun now!
 
Guys these look like pot plants
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Usually I don’t do much for them, but this round I kept up with foliar, did a couple nice top dressings, some enzyme teas, some ground up crickets n mealworms, all sorts of tasty stuff.
 
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