I get depression and anxiety a lot and when things get bad I just remember when I was sitting in prison and poof magically things aren't that bad any more.I’ve never experienced anything like this. I’ve battled depression for 25 years, and things have been easier the last 8 or so. Went to a convention last week, had an amazing experience with someone on Thursday night (a walk and a conversation, but it was amazing), got back home Friday, and suddenly I’m half a man. I can’t sleep. Not interested in food. Filled with despair and nothing. And darker. What the hell. It’s like I’m not here. It’s not going away. So empty I hope for a strong wind to blow me away into nothing. That’s so far from my normal state it’s absurd. But here I am.
Not looking for an answer, but not sure what to do either. Just wanted to say hey I guess.
This winter seemed especially depressing and I believe you are correct getting outside and getting your hands back in the soil and under the sun changes the world quite a bit.Everyone is just coming out of winter. Hold on a few more weeks and see if being able to get outside doesn't help. You've got that great tunnel that needs attention. Sounds like absolute boomer advice but yeah, get some sun on your face and see if you don't start feeling different with a change in the weather.
Some holes are very deep. Will take a while to climb out.
Thanks man, I appreciate that. I’ve dealt with anxiety and depression for a long time, but it’s been over a decade since I’ve been that low, and it came out of nowhere. Like getting hit by a truck, that was nuts. Not all the way back yet, but far improved over Sunday.I get depression and anxiety a lot and when things get bad I just remember when I was sitting in prison and poof magically things aren't that bad any more.
Just remember your a cool dude and you have people who care about you. Talking usually helps me a lot also and you have plenty of friends here if you ever need to chat to uplift your spirits I'm here for ya bud.
This winter seemed especially depressing and I believe you are correct getting outside and getting your hands back in the soil and under the sun changes the world quite a bit.
Looks like a coupe words fell out there.Guys these look like excellently grown pot plants
Are you sure those aren't tomato plants lol!Guys these look like pot plants
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Usually I don’t do much for them, but this round I kept up with foliar, did a couple nice top dressings, some enzyme teas, some ground up crickets n mealworms, all sorts of tasty stuff.