I’ve never experienced anything like this. I’ve battled depression for 25 years, and things have been easier the last 8 or so. Went to a convention last week, had an amazing experience with someone on Thursday night (a walk and a conversation, but it was amazing), got back home Friday, and suddenly I’m half a man. I can’t sleep. Not interested in food. Filled with despair and nothing. And darker. What the hell. It’s like I’m not here. It’s not going away. So empty I hope for a strong wind to blow me away into nothing. That’s so far from my normal state it’s absurd. But here I am.
Not looking for an answer, but not sure what to do either. Just wanted to say hey I guess.