Hey there growbewan. Definitely need to sit back and smoke one and relax a little, trust me. Go through my grow, not sure what pages or anything, but you'll see where I start to buckle in there somewhere but I had these guys to pick me back up and make me feel better. And guess who it was...Muddy and Andy Botwin! haha. As well as Captain Cure he has been a tremendous help.
Andy made me realize how important it is to be able to separate yourself from the grow whilst still actually growing. You can't just dwell on every little aspect and thing that goes wrong, you'll stress yourself out. That's not to say that you shouldn't be concerned and eager to fix the problem asap, but don't stress yourself over the Stress Reliever! Know what I mean? You're all good dude, doing better than me. Tell ya what, later this early evening after mine wake up at four, my time, I will be posting some pics of my progress/problems. I guarantee you that my pics will make you feel better. I give you permission to laugh all you want at my expense, you'll see what I mean.
And do I care? Of course! I don't like the fact that they aren't doing great at all. But I get up everyday and check on them and respect them and talk to them and do what I can to help them along their way. I do my best to push the frustrations away as it only makes it worse. I tell them I love them, log on to AFN here, spark up a fat bong load, and
Chill. Out It works for me. I know that I am doing what I can and they'll treat me respectively. I also know that this shit ain't over for me. This is my first grow and I see so many more to come so all is well in my book.
I'll be looking back saying, "Yup, that was how rough I started, I didn't know nothin' and got like 5 grams off of four plants my first grow. But hey wanna try my new strain I made? It's the fiiiirrrrreeeee
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Stick in there growbewan. You are your only hope.