hey special, you are definitely not alone here, combat related tbi, and ptsd get to everyone who has it. i wasn't a stoner until it caught up to me 3 years ago (near 30 years from combat). i might joke around with the novelty and nostalgia of it all calling myself a stoner, but really you gotta think of it as 'as needed' psych meds. for recreational use think of it as a simple choice: chill with weed products or get unpredictable results with booze.