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Stoners, you're awesome. I stumbled in here a few weeks ago hoping for some guidance in my first attempt at growing my own medication. What I found here in addition to that guidance was unexpected but desperately needed and has in its own way been medicating. To find a group of people who are just genuinely kind and caring when at a point where I was giving up on humanity as a whole and even individually has been inspiring. I've spent the past decade slowly shutting everyone other than my husband and children out of my life. Husband is the only other adult I have any contact at all with for sometimes weeks or months at a time. He's a chef, so most days I barely even see him, and it's just me with a 1, 3, 6 and 12 year old. He's also a vet and an alcoholic. It's been a rougher than usual week here with the alcohol. But you stoners have managed to make me smile and when I normally would have crawled into that dark place inside of myself this week I didn't thanks to you. Why am I telling you this? I haven't the foggiest fucking idea tbh. I stopped sharing myself with other people a long time ago. It's summer solstice though, and a full moon, and somebody said we were to show up naked. So this is me. Being me. Showing up. But I'm exhausted. And really going to try hard for some sleep. So thank you again, and party on! :bong:
Aw I feel you. I had given up on humanity too I always keep to myself. My little ones are 1, 8, and 10. My husband was a drinker, but he noticed when I started ignoring him so he quit drinking. He knows my previous marriage was hell on earth I'm lucky to be alive today. And that guy was a psycho alcoholic now registered sex offender for things he did to me. I'm glad I found this group of wonderful people too, and I'm always here if you want to chat!
 
Aw I feel you. I had given up on humanity too I always keep to myself. My little ones are 1, 8, and 10. My husband was a drinker, but he noticed when I started ignoring him so he quit drinking. He knows my previous marriage was hell on earth I'm lucky to be alive today. And that guy was a psycho alcoholic now registered sex offender for things he did to me. I'm glad I found this group of wonderful people too, and I'm always here if you want to chat!
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So for those of you who have yet to grow out any Portal strain, go get on it! @arty zan My AS99 is a c99 dominate pineapple pheno! Man I hope you get the same pheno, unless pineapple c99 doesn't blow your skirt up... If thats the case I don't think we can hang out any more, cause this damn plant smells great! I can smell it all the was through my sinus passages, and about taste it in my throat. I don't even know if that makes sense, but that what the brain said to type...
I just got some as99's they will be in my next grow!
 
@wwwillie @Fuggzy don't think you guys are alone. There are tons of us. This is the first time in 8 yrs I've had my twins even acknowledge me on Father's day. For seven yrs I had no contact. The day alimony stopped she dumped them at my door and moved from Maine to Wisconsin. I feel for you guys and hope it gets better for you
 
@ Mossy your office now? Do I bring the laderhosen
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It's good to know I make you smile, maybe you'll go easy on me, if not I'll have to make you laugh so hard that your incapable of punishing me.:crying:



Now you know I am a Mutley fan and yesterday I saw a Mutley badge, I was like w-w-w-w-w-ahhhhhht why haven't I got one of those??????
So I clicked on it and blow me it was a 6K Kitteh, so please, purdy please, purdy please with a cherry on top can I have a 6K Kitteh?
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I also plan to do at PC case micro grow cab build thread with step by step pictures as well as a carbon filter with step by step with full colour photos & none of that artsy black white David Bailey rubbish!

Thanks also for all the reps too :bighug::bighug::bighug::pass:

 
So being that it fits the holiday, I thought I would share a bit on myself. In my area there is a large camp out that happens on mothers day (I go with my mom), and then 6 months later. It attracts about 300-400 people, and it is a giant celebration of the drums. Mainly the typical drum circle type of crowd, but sometimes you get the random tie with a snare or tom-tom set, lots of bongos, and any other style you can think of. The crowd is a wonderful mixture of race, age, sex, beliefs, and just like here, everyone is an equal.

Now there are also a fair amount of didgeridoo players, and that is an instrument that I have always been fascinated by. While camping there are TON of classes through out the day. Anything from crafts, dancing, drumming, and you guessed it, digg playing.

I went to my first class after sharing a community breakfast with the surrounding tent, I had my gritty coffee, couldn't be to picky and I gotta have it. ;) I was able to produce the reverberation needed to make sounds in less than 10 minutes, but it only took me 2 minutes to fall in love. After the class I hung around and shot the shit with the instructor who had been playing for 15+ years. He shared some good advice with me on shifting my pitch, and ways to project different sounds, and let me play around on him personal digg. As you may imagine this only drove the newly acquired love in to a fast burning passion. His dig was made by his own hands and was a 7' elm tree. He said every second of work was solely done by him, including cutting down the tree. As someone in love with nature, and working with my hand, I had already made a new set of goals. I bought a homemade pvc digg of a guy that night for $5, and started just making noise all over the camp ground.

Over the course of the next 3 months, I studied all I could about them. I learned to appreciate them as more than just a "noise stick." I started looking at my surrounding area for trees I could use. Problem was I don't have the tool to take on that kind of project, and my budget didn't include buying a bunch of tools for the same price I could buy a nice digg for. So I had to keep looking... One day walking along a lake, I found a nice mature bamboo patch, and found my digg. I ended up harvesting about a dozen 20" sections to find the right sections, but when I found it, I knew it.

For the sake of time.. I will shorten this part... I basically started building them, and selling them. I didn't go crazy it was only about 8 of them that sold, but they where $40 regardless of time put in, and I tried to make each one personalized for that person. The average digg took me about 40 hours to harvest, bore, sand, burn, carve, and shape mouth pieces. I made them under the name of Whoom Sticks. I have always been told that while drumming in a circle, if you loose you beat just go back to the heart beat. All circles will be on beat with the heart, and it is believed to be from being in the mothers womb, listening to her heart. I have tested this idea many times, and it has came true every single time. So I did a play on the word womb (didn't think womb stick sounded right... cache dump incoming!) and went with Whoom, it is a sound the dig makes too so it was fitting.

My last trip to the camp out, i only brought my personal bamboo. The one that took me 240 feet to find 5 foot I liked. My very first hand made digg, THE first Whoom Stick. I wake up, have my community breakfast, and grab my gritty coffee. I have a class to go to. This time I played my digg form the back of the class. It is now my 4th or 5th time attending his class, and I no longer needed to have his full attention, however I had it anyways. After the class I stayed around again as I normally did. Except this time the teacher was playing my digg, my hard work, my passion. I was a bit intimidated having a master of his craft inspect my work, but was was ever so joyful to hear him play it. He did things on it I still to this day can not. It was enchanting to hear, and inspirations for future learning. To top it off he asked to use it for a performance that night, and had a short talk about it on stage. I got a HUGE round of applause, it was a wonderful feeling. Later that night I had a guy offer me $150 for it, and jumped to $175 when I declined. It's not the fanciest digg, or even that nice really but to me it's priceless. I kindly told him no amount of money could separate me from my digg. He just gave me a hug, and his business card. He was a marketing executive, and offered me a chance to make cash on my work, to which I also kindly declined. Having the guy who taught me to play use my piece for a performance was enough payment for all the work I had done.

I no longer make them, but did enjoy it, I do still play them however. Mo son loves to listen to it, and just laughs the entire time. So in the name of high and free spirits, under the great ball of fire in our sky, I leave you with a pagan and his digg. (theres a lot of fine carving, and burning that can't be seen :( )

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I just got some as99's they will be in my next grow!
WOOHOOO the awesome. I don't know your taste, but I can say this pheno is pretty tasty. She is not all that tall, but I did have some critter damage in the seedling stage, but my oh my, she has some thick buds on her. She is at 67 days, and looks to be fully cloudy too. My feeble mind says chop chop, all day long, while my empty wallet say, you better get back jack! I hope you enjoy them. Hers a bit of :karmacloud: and a :slap: to get thing moving!
 
Funny thing about being a veteran with an alchy problem... We drink booze in a shallow attempt to quiet the raging killer installed in us by the military/wars.. Or in an even more shallow attempt to numb the painful memories acquired in said military/wars.. But what ends up happening is that the raging warrior just spills out onto our loved ones in a most ugly manner, and the memories only get numbed for the moment while creating new painful memories with the loved ones.

It's a sad cycle really, and it took me 10 years of introspection, meditation, and insight to realize all this. It came with enormous cost too, 1 marriage, countless friends, lots of money probably in the tens of thousands of dollars. Some people may never reach that insight, most might way too late.
 
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