yeah I haven't always been a stand up dude(I was fucked up as a youngster, on meth n stuff) so now in my adult life I live by a simple rule. My definition of happiness is not how much money I have or how much "stuff" but instead the measure of my wealth is defined as "the sum and the quality of the personal relationships in my life" so I just try to live my life by seeing how many friends and loved ones I can have, the rest will work itself out. If I don't focus on myself but on the joy of others my life is almost pure bliss all the time, I am literally NEVER in a bad mood for more than a few seconds lol. The main reason is that when I find myself in a foul mood it is usually because I am focused to much on what Derek wants and not what good Derek could be doing for someone else