Not going to lie.....this past week has been the hardest week in my life. Last Tuesday my close friend that lives around the corner from me, shoved a gun in his mouth and ended his life. It has changed me forever. I have tried to make sense of it but whenever I try to sort it out my brain turns to a puddle of mud. I am surrounded by support and will be ok, but I guess I will have to acknowledge that I will probably never have answers to all the questions that are spinning in my brain. His wife has said she will come and talk with me soon, and I hope she can help with the questions. She will share the note he left, so hopefully that will give some clues. If any of you are struggling, there is help if you just reach out. We have to get better at helping each other through life's ups and downs. 
