Whew, gonna be a long one.
After decades of extreme physical activity, the bill came due. That's the short version. These were not the recreational outdoor activities some folks glory in. This was simply staying alive in the environment of my choice. Not only heavy daily repetitions, but extraordinary circumstances that can tap the core. And, not a lot of time to heal from the work.
This winter was especially long, cold, and deep. I was worn out and starting to injure myself. And, not a lot of time to heal, especially coming into Spring, lots of work. My pain was growing, my mobility lessening. I was in a lot of pain all spring, but was still getting it done. Dig boat out of the snow and haul it out of the bottom. Put new cover on greenhouse. As things thawed get soil and pots ready. Window grow enclosure up, window grow started. By now I'm in so much pain, neck, shoulders, arms, hands and wrists, I was only able to sleep 2-4 hours a night. Have to get up move around painfully to get some circulation. Last stressor, but not the least, came late May. Just didn't want to deal with hauling the kitchen drain water out. The drain line is off the ground and in warm spring air. The line terminates in the gray water garden and was under ice. I go out with my ice chipping bar. First slam into the ice my hands and wrists explode. My body screams....."that's it motherfucker, you ain't doing nothing!"
For all intents and purposes I'm mostly crippled for what seems like a month, at least. The grow keeps me going, helps with the depression. Not enough sleep to make it REM, so I knew no healing until muscles begin to relax. A body full of hyper tense muscles, this is going to take some time. Even though I'd get depressed, I knew my body could heal, mostly. Once I could hit REM again the healing really sped up. Legs, feet, knees good. So when I could move some, I started waking. I walked a lot. Exercise, circulation. The hurt parts do nothing, dangle with no stress.
Yesterday I went out and cut and hauled wood. Hands, wrist, right shoulder still need to be babied.
I was wondering if I'd ever be back in the saddle again. Going forward. The down time showed me there is bunch of stuff I just don't need to do. Making the work lighter, by going slower, doing less at any one time. Avoiding known stressors, period! And asking for help..............