On Thursday, I went to the hospital to have an MRI. No big deal normally, right? Well, it was almost the death of me..............
I have a very messed up right shoulder and I am unable to lie flat on hard surfaces, sometimes even in bed. I had tried three time in the last 6 weeks to get the MRI and couldn't. So they decided to sedate me. Fine, I've been under sedattion at least 10 times with no issues.........................
And they gave me an overdose............500mg of Ketamine vs the 200 I should have got............. And I spent 10 hours in recovery, suffering from the most horrible hallucinations you can imagine, and convinced the entire time I was likely to die ( when i had a rare instance of lucidity ). I was begging them to help me, but I couldn't make myself understood. On top of that, they had no procedures in place to deal with this situation as I wasn't technically under my doctor's care, I wasn't having a procedure. The Anesthesiologist was not at the hospital, they had the call in the attending and an on duty Anesthesiologist, who, according to my lady said, upon looking at my chart: " That's an astounding dosage!"..............
I finally feel about normal. But I'm terrified of taking any meds. I can barely take a couple puffs on my vaporizer. I can't even look at, not to say in, a pill bottle. I can't take my meds, I'm terrified of falling back into that horrible world I was in............
And they expect me to have surgery in the near future?????? NO F'N way!
I have no idea what it will take to get my head on straight. I'll be tending my plants. I don't know how much time I'll be spending here for a while, I'm a mess and admit it.
..Sorry to hear that..it sounds horrendous.
