littleT, one thing you'll get here is plenty of support when you need it. It would be nice if we could just go to one of the box stores (HD, Lowe's, etc.), get a bag of mix, throw a seed in it, and be home free. I've actually seen that happen before but you have to be really, really lucky.
You can continue to do things the way you have been doing it: start a grow, burn up your plants, then ask for help... or, you could invest a little time studying some of the grows (particularly in the new grower forum) and taking advantage of the other resources available on the site.
We have new growers here, who invested a little time educating themselves, that had outstanding results right from the beginning. The people who don't do that, end up waiting a lot longer to enjoy their first harvest. We have moderators who are designated to watch out for, and assist new growers, patiently. As you have probably already experienced, the members here share a common purpose, which is to assist and encourage others.
So, I want you to know, I'm not trying to give you a hard time... but, there is a shorter path to your growing goals.